Another day off! Yippie! It’s called a snow day. It’s sure pretty out there, well it was until the dogs tromped through it! Now it just looks cold. I hate to be cold. I am more a spring and fall person myself. And right now I can’t hardly wait for it to turn spring. Just 3 days ago I found a wild flower poking it’s head up from the cold ground. I was so excited. Now I have to wait until the snow melts to make sure it survived.
When Sir got home last night we had dinner and he sat down at the computer to play a game and relax. I tried to go online to see if this storm was going to hit us but my computer just would not go online. I unplugged, I reset settings, I was getting more and more stressed. Finally I asked him where he wanted me to do my corner time, and explained that I was getting too stressed out and needed a time out. He took one look at me and asked “or do you need a spanking?” I told him a time out was probably all I needed even though I knew I had allowed myself to go further than that. My stress level was far beyond a time out! I guess he knew this, and he kept asking me. Finally I agreed yes I needed a spanking, just a short one to get myself back together.
I went and laid across the arm of the couch waiting with an upturned ass for him to begin. He first used the crop over my light robe, it stung nicely. Then he raised my robe and began spanking in earnest. He got the paddles and the new wooden spoons. I was all over the place he finally had to put his weight on me to hold me still. So much for a light spanking. As he spanked I felt the tension leaving my body, harder and harder he spanked. I yelled into the pillows, he spanked so hard he broke one of the new spoons. Thankfully! 
When he finished I was totally spent.
My corner time he said could just be done right there. So I laid there with my uncovered ass still up in the air and just breathed slowly. After about 20 minutes of this calming effect, it dawned on me that my back end was up turned and facing the front door which has windows on it and a sheer curtain. I tried to think of how I could bring this up and maybe get him to lower my robe without seeming to be trying to get out of something. I managed to do this calmly, his reply was tinged with laughter “well it’s night time, maybe no one will come and if they do we will just tell them you were a bad girl and had to have a spanking.” He never moved to come to my rescue. laughs
So I spent the last 10 minutes praying no one wanted anything. Nothing dire would happen in the world that would send anyone to our house, at least for the next 10 minutes! Do you know how long 10 minutes can be?? After getting up I suggested we not use that place anymore it’s not good for the mind! He just smiled.
I am glad that I was able to go to him and tell him I needed a time out. There was a time I wouldn’t of done that. Instead I would of just acted out until he got mad or worse until we were fighting. But these last couple of weeks I have had long talks with myself, telling myself that if I want him to help me, I need to help him. I can’t expect him to just know instantly that I am closely hitting my wits end. He needs a little help.
Was it hard to admit this too him at the time? Oh god yes. But as I said before, embarrassment has no place in a submissives life! So I swallowed my pride and told him to help me. Luckily once I voiced it he saw that I needed more than what I was admitting too and he didn’t quit questioning me until I told the truth. I wasn’t really liking it at first. But by the time I agreed I needed that spanking I was so glad that he kept on and didn’t let me go until I told the truth. It will make it easier the next time I need to ask for help.
I don’t think that will be anytime soon though, my bottom is still sore and sitting brings things to the forefront of my mind!
