I almost forgot!! I did get to wear my collar one morning. We did have a short play session. And it was quite interesting. It was about 2, almost 3 weeks ago. In between the flu’s! WOW I can’t believe I forgot that.
We woke up on that morning and before I got up he went in the living room and got my collar. I told you I get all gooey when he comes towards me with that thing! Anyway after he put it on me he tugged on it to make me follow it, towards the end of the bed where he locked it to the chains attached to the underside of the bed. At this point I think I melted! Because I don’t remember everything that happened.
I know I got a spanking with the crop. Sometimes I like it, sometimes not. This was a do not like it time because I hadn’t had a spanking in some time and it really hurt each time he smacked me with it. I remember being all over the small area that my chains would allow! Then he got the vibes. And this is also where I get a bit confused. My head just left the planet on this one. I remember having so many different thoughts going through my mind. I remember saying no ~ but thinking OH MY GOD YES ~ He placed one in my pussy and one in my ass, and I thought I was going to die.
I have never had that done to me before, nor had I felt those sensations before. It was like heaven, but at the same time it was humiliating! I wasn’t allowed to touch myself, or the vibes. I just had to lay there and take it. Which I am thankful he never asked how I liked it. Because I would probably have died of embarrassment! I was floating away on a cloud. Just as I was almost gone I would remember my plight and feel humiliated all over again. Which of course had me coming both ways- floating ~~ CUMS ~~ humiliated ~~ CUMS!! Why does humiliation go so well with submissiveness? Is it because we want to prove how much we will endure for the sake of the one we love? Do we do it for them? Or do we secretly do it only for ourselves? Those sound like questions are for another post!!
I know it didn’t last long enough, and yet it lasted for ever! I wanted it to end, but then wanted it to go on forever. How can my mind be so split like that? Anyway, it was a great morning.
I kept my collar on that whole day, refusing when he asked if I wanted it off. I have told him a million times how it feels to have it on. I don’t think he always listen so good! Anyway but that was the end of my submissiveness then. And sadly up to this point! Oh well, if it was the end, then what a way to go. I will always wonder what else I missed. But I will always have that to replay. OK good and confused now so I am off until I am in a better frame of mind.
