There really never is a good place to start. The past takes too long to explain and the future is unsure. The only place that makes any sense, is the present. So here we are, the present.
I just finished 25 minutes in the corner. Why? Well I am trying my hardest, (hmmm his hardest) to omit the word “NO” from my vocabulary. It isn’t as easy as you might think. It certainly isn’t as easy as I thought. I do so good for a couple of hours and then it just pops out of my mouth! I don’t mean too.. it just happens. Each time I say it, it is 5 minutes in the corner.
I must admit that 5 minutes doesn’t sound so bad. But considering when we started it was “5 no’s = 5 minutes” in horrible chip clips on the nips!! (I would rather have plain ole nipple clamps than chip clips.) I was doing good so it was raised to “1 no = 5 minutes”, after 5 days of that my nips were so sore we had to change tactics. Which is how we got back to boring old corner time. I hate it. Standing there with my nose against that hard surface, for what seems like a never ending amount of time, like a naughty child!
Anyway, that word (counts the amounts I typed the “forbidden word) is driving me nuts. Why can’t I just stop? Why can’t I say, “I think not” “can’t” “won’t” anything but that dreaded word?!
When it was offered we just forget about it, I was horrified!! What then was those sore nipples for?? What about all that lost time?? No, sir! (opps) I can do this thing! I can stop that horrid word, I know I am better than that! Just give me time. Snickers at that last line, that is exactly what he does, give me time.
Changing? Yes. Changed? “I think not”
